how do i stay motivated?

So lately i have been having problems trying to stay motivated at anything. I mean ever since i finished school and moved back home, its just been boring. I just either stay at home, clean, try to find a job, watch tv, go to bed and repeat it again the next day. Now I'm working part time but that just takes a couple of hours a day anyway. I feel left out of what is going on. In school I was always busy either with work, classes, homework, organizations, projects, friends, and just living the college life. But i had responsibility. It was a great experience and I met so many people from all over the world. I made some great friends that I will cherish. I was excited to graduate and sad too. I knew that it was not going to be the same once i left, but I thought you gotta move on to something better. But i just haven't found it.

All my friends and even my sister and brother are away, I feel all left out here in kc, although my boyfriend is here, he is doing his thing. And this job hunt is well just going, more and more people are being laid off because of the economy, leaving me with more competition and less chances of getting something. I don't feel important, I don't feel useful and I am afraid to loose the knowledge that I have gained.


Not only that, I don't have true friends here. The ones i had in high school have changed, or their married, or away, or have a career. I don't go out and I don't talk to people much. I feel excluded. There is the occasional going out to party with acquaintances, but nothing much from there. I agree with you Natasia, I feel alone at times. I have read a couple of books, done some research online, practice some piano and try to stay connected with others online but that is it. Maybe I am asking too much. Don't get me wrong, I am soooo thankful for what i have and the opportunities that have come my way. I know i shouldn't complaint because there are people out there that are worst than me. At least i got food and a place to live. I just want to partake in something, volunteer.


Like the definition says, I want reasons to engage in a certain behavior.

The one thing that has me pump is that I start indoor soccer next week. Im sooooo excited, although, kind of afraid because i haven't done much of a work out in the past several months :-(. But I CAN DO IT. I think this will give me a start, some energy and a need to stay positive. Thats what I plan to do for now, but if you have any other suggestions please let me know.


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